Episode VI

It’s that time of year. Winter. The office is in complete disarray. Papers flying, people running and bosses cutting costs wherever they see first.

This week was a really rough week. I learned that my boss, the highest boss on my totem poll, was being let go. After 5 years of dedicated and valuable input in this company, they thank him by saying, “please have your desk cleaned up by Friday.”

He was a mentor to me, the person I went to with problems and questions throughout my time here. I find myself lost at this company now. I thought this company was “a family,” a company that cares about its employees. I guess I needed to be reminded that this is corporate America.

I am thoroughly disappointed and frustrated with the situation. Do I keep working as though nothing has happened? Do I hope that this new “restructure” opens a door for myself? I keep telling myself that I could never hope to benefit from someone else’s loss. But isn’t that part of the working world? My values and my ambitions are in competition at this moment.

As I find my internship winding down and my job hunt further behind than I had planned, I am stuggling to find my place in the world. The hopes of staying at this company doesn't seem to be getting me anywhere and I am more than disappointed. I love the people, the location and work more than any opportunity I have expereinced before it.

I know what I am good at, I know what I need to work on. I understand what it takes and I am a hard worker, so why is it that I am without a job? Job searching is a full-time job, I realize this, but please tell me when I am supposed to fit it in between working, graduating and breathing.

Honestly, I will take any advice at this moment. If someone comes across this blog and feels any connection to my troubles, please share with me and tell me how you got through it and how you are doing in your career today. AND if there are any employers looking for a very motivated and hard working PR specialist, please contact me with any opportunities.

This is my plea, this is my life.
Patty